I realise every day that so many bad things have made their home to my mind, heart and body since I came to this holy place called IITD. I face them every moment at some way or the other. When I look back, I see clearly myself as a very dedicating, never tiring person always wanting to help others. All these characteristics, I consider, were priceless diamonds given to me by parents, friends and God. But I regret to watch these specialities disappering from me. The hostile environment of friend circle and globalisation effect have reduced me to a person aspiring of doing "Big" works by short cuts and wanting the maximum credit even without doing work. My thinking sphere has shrinkened itself only seeking bad things about others and maligning them and unhealthy competition, selfishness, lustful thoughts and all others.
I consider the reasons behind all this is the lack of self-teaching so others changed me according to their nature and I could not understand what was I doing. Externally, I was unable to get a person with me who can motivate and guide me. So
my heart stopped working. So I find myself in a very complex situation when I could not understand basic and simple principles of life. I was destined to work in a worst team that could be possible here unfortunately or fortunately. So I started to become worse and worse. But still I hope that whatever God does is for nothing but for the good of man. If I think positively, then this environment stimulates the real world environment that I am going to get while working in Industry. So I become able to excel in this environment, then I can survive anywhere.