this stage

In last some days, I have come across the discussion of marriage many times. I do not know what is happening to me and my friends but this stage surely seems marriage stage when we are about to get jobs and bored of talking of girl friends and sex. Now, probably we want to follow an organized way called marriage.
We talk about type of girl we want, her profession, number of kids we want to have(though, in totally non-serious mood), extra-marital relationship and what not. We have also started to think how we are going to spend our money and investment and stuff.
Some are still trying hard for another degree called MBA and others have decided to settle with what they are going to get from here. But I think that many of us have realized their limits at this stage and are trying to accept it in very friendly manner.
For me, I am going to be of 20 years old in few days and it is , I feel, very mature and responsible age where I can decide everything for rest of my life. I had many big dreams about myself when I was teenager. I could not figured out those dreams clearly but only feeling of doing something great, exceptional and most importantly useful to others was there. Now as I was faced by the reality in a very early and lonely stage when one side there is me and other side is whole world, I feel like a very very average person. From the little experience that I have got here, I learned that we need to have one interest or skill for which we can work for whole life. We need to get down to a very very specialized field. I am bothered by the fact that I have not got yet any such type of interest or skill.
Though, going to becoming a mechanical engineer, I know a very very little about it and could not learn much here. So I feel compelled to search for the thing I love doing. There are just too much things for me that I can never get out of them and find my true goal. It is very disappointing at the age of 20 years.

A mighty heart

Yesterday, I saw a movie "A mighty heart" . It looked to me as great movie showing helplessness of human before death, closeness of love and relationship and cruelty present in the world. When I tried to understand the death closely, a feeling of disappointment grew into me like all my hope and desires are shattering away. I started to feel what was important to me leaving everything else behind.
In life, we always see the upper face of everything. Every relation becomes weak with time. We do not see importance of people in our life until we miss them badly. In today's cruel world, we can not live without loving somebody. People around us are the most important assets we could have. I seldom realize that we should express our love and concern in any way that we can to those who are kind to us.
We can dream, hope and desire about many things all the time but today, time has become more precious than ever where there are endless talks about victory, dominance, influence etc. It has become very easy for us to forget the important things that matter to us. We, today, can not waste our time on anything that do not seem to fulfill our desires. But today what we can do best is to express our love to those who care for us.