Life comes full circle, only to lead on to another circle until peace is made with the inner-self. Even a lifetime of search often falls short. The search may result in a unseemly small error that have been incorporated during the journey which completely changes the outcome. I now realize that a decade of wandering has not taken me anywhere. It is not that nothing happened in this period. Many good things occurred about which I am not sure if anything I have done to deserve them. It is God's mercy and virtues of family and friends that have caused them. But if I were to list what went wrong, the first thing that comes to mind is the loss of innocence. Actually it appears the most important thing that might be related to all others that did not go well. My mind often try to recapitulate the entire experience and find where it all started. I can say with some confidence that I have found it out. It is my email id username !
My username is speedmanoj - in email as well as many other internet accounts including this blog. Many a times I have realized the vices of speed and in fact had written a post also on the virtues of slowness in this blog. But never did I realize that an oxymoron tag with my name was all where the beginning of mismatch with my actually slow nature lie. A label forced on one's name never allows oneself to behave otherwise - a psychological fact that, I believe, might have been proved. And with god's grace, the username that I really wanted is still available. The journey from speedmanoj to slowmanoj took a decade to correct itself. Lets see how many more circles or any other conical shape for that matter lie in store for my next journeys.
My username is speedmanoj - in email as well as many other internet accounts including this blog. Many a times I have realized the vices of speed and in fact had written a post also on the virtues of slowness in this blog. But never did I realize that an oxymoron tag with my name was all where the beginning of mismatch with my actually slow nature lie. A label forced on one's name never allows oneself to behave otherwise - a psychological fact that, I believe, might have been proved. And with god's grace, the username that I really wanted is still available. The journey from speedmanoj to slowmanoj took a decade to correct itself. Lets see how many more circles or any other conical shape for that matter lie in store for my next journeys.
